A bit of them in me
Him:
No matter how hard I try, I'll never be half as much as he was. Such an exceptional man. So amazingly intelligent and so humble at the same time. One of his associates once said that such a genious brain must be kept frozen or something for future investigation, and I agree!!. He was so inspiring to me. He's always been my reference, my model.….
He was such a cultured man, even though engineers tend to be the contrary. He knew about music, phylosophy, art, history, he spoke 5 languages, he taught me to love nature and to enjoy the loneliness of the mountain. He was so complete, like a reanissance man…. A modern Leonardo da Vinci. I've been looking for someone like him all my life, but I've lost all hope. He was unique. You can call it Electra complex if you want. I don't really care ;-)
We enjoyed each other's company so much… but he had to leave me. I was devastated. I couldn't believe it. I almost went crazy…. But I survived and pulled myself together just because of her.
Her:
My relationship with her was a little bit more complicated. She's been trying to dominate me ever since I can remember. I loved her intently even though she was so over controlling. So uncontrollable herself, such a strong character . She was my other reference in her own way. Her sense of humour was amazing. She made me laugh in the most bizarre situations. She was so positive, so strong, so full of energy I still can't beleive she's left me as well.
No matter what I did, she was always there to help, even though she knew I wasn't behaving properly. She would tell me off, but still give me a hand, or even lie for me if it was necessary. I could always count on her. She was cool that times. Others, she was just unbearable.
It's funny how sometimes she draw me nuts and I could feel like killing her and others I was simply overwhelmed by the love I felt when I was watching her snoring in her sleep or just doing her own thing without noticing I was observing her. After he left us I pampered her as much as I could, tried to make her as happy as possible, tried to make her understand how much I needed her, though I don't know if I suceeded.
Now both of them are gone and I feel so helpless. I know I'm not alone but I feel lonely in my heart. I have my friends and family, but I've lost my references. I know I'm strong, but I wasn't ready for this yet………..
No matter how hard I try, I'll never be half as much as he was. Such an exceptional man. So amazingly intelligent and so humble at the same time. One of his associates once said that such a genious brain must be kept frozen or something for future investigation, and I agree!!. He was so inspiring to me. He's always been my reference, my model.….
He was such a cultured man, even though engineers tend to be the contrary. He knew about music, phylosophy, art, history, he spoke 5 languages, he taught me to love nature and to enjoy the loneliness of the mountain. He was so complete, like a reanissance man…. A modern Leonardo da Vinci. I've been looking for someone like him all my life, but I've lost all hope. He was unique. You can call it Electra complex if you want. I don't really care ;-)
We enjoyed each other's company so much… but he had to leave me. I was devastated. I couldn't believe it. I almost went crazy…. But I survived and pulled myself together just because of her.
Her:
My relationship with her was a little bit more complicated. She's been trying to dominate me ever since I can remember. I loved her intently even though she was so over controlling. So uncontrollable herself, such a strong character . She was my other reference in her own way. Her sense of humour was amazing. She made me laugh in the most bizarre situations. She was so positive, so strong, so full of energy I still can't beleive she's left me as well.
No matter what I did, she was always there to help, even though she knew I wasn't behaving properly. She would tell me off, but still give me a hand, or even lie for me if it was necessary. I could always count on her. She was cool that times. Others, she was just unbearable.
It's funny how sometimes she draw me nuts and I could feel like killing her and others I was simply overwhelmed by the love I felt when I was watching her snoring in her sleep or just doing her own thing without noticing I was observing her. After he left us I pampered her as much as I could, tried to make her as happy as possible, tried to make her understand how much I needed her, though I don't know if I suceeded.
Now both of them are gone and I feel so helpless. I know I'm not alone but I feel lonely in my heart. I have my friends and family, but I've lost my references. I know I'm strong, but I wasn't ready for this yet………..
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